Monthly Archives: January 2012

This Scares Me

My 2012 is beginning… Now. I was too tired from night shiftin’ to make resolutions on the 1st. So here it goes, the few resolutions I’ve made for myself to ring in the New Year!

Get My Bootay Back to Bikram!
I miss practicing yoga more than anything! It’s been a few months, and I’m craving the regular sweat seshs. I need to make time in my life for this. I feel my absolute healthiest when I’m regularly in the hot room!

Camel, I’m coming back for you!

Go Gail Vaz Oxlade with My Finances
I’m awfully dependent on my debit card. I need to break this habit and get used to taking out set amounts of cash each month and spending from that. Hopefully this will also help control “mindless” spending, which happens when I use my debit card to purchase something, and then when I’m going over my accounts at the end of the week, I’m looking at the purchase wondering “when did I buy that?” Ya, not good!

My other finance-related goal is to not accumulate any debt while going to school. Thankfully I have been saving up for awhile, but pursuing studies means I still have to stick to a budget!

Take a Vacation!
I haven’t taken time off to do anything fun in over a year. Sometime in the second half of this year I want to do a little traveling. I’m undecided where, but it definitely won’t be Vegas! Am I the only twenty-something who has zero interest in going to Vegas?! Probably…

Run a Marathon
I haven’t written about my half-marathon experience because it sucked. It was the worst run I’ve ever done for two reasons.

First off, I had begun experiencing pain in my ankle about a week or two before the race. I was like, ahhh hell no! I’m running this race. Eff off! But it didn’t. And so I’ve been out of the running game, dealing with a very swollen ankle and foot.

It’s kind of got in the way of running for the past six weeks, big time!

Secondly, my bowels started bugging me the night before my run. Stomach aches are pretty normal for me unfortunately. Thank-you gluten intolerance and IBS! But when I woke-up the next morning with what I like to refer to as “gut rot,” I knew this wasn’t just a tummy ache that was going to go away. At one point I had to spend nearly 7 minutes in the outhouse during the race. Yaaaaaaaaaaa, TMI?! Sorry…

So I didn’t exactly cross the finish line with the time I was aiming for or the euphoric feeling I was hoping to experience. I crossed the finish line completely concerned with where the closest washroom was and how quickly I could get there. Regardless, my “crappy” experience made me realize (a) I want to give racing another go, but (b) I need to train smarter the next time around.

I’m excited to get “back on my feet” and train smart VERY, VERY SOON.

Vancouver, I’m talking ’bout you!

Be Open to New Relationships
This doesn’t necessarily mean romantic relationships, although I want to be open to the prospect of *maybe* meeting someone. I don’t know if this is the year for it, but if it comes my way, I won’t complain!

This is more about being open to new friendships. In the past year, I’ve been pretty selective who I let in my life, probably as a protective mechanism. I’m at a point now where I’m ready to open myself. Meeting new people is exciting, especially when I realize how many kick ass peeps are out there! Let’s make friends!!

Do Anything and Everything That Scares Me
Somersaults (I’m irrationally scared of snapping my neck doing one). Bungee jumping. Swimming in the ocean. Trying out CrossFit. If it scares me, I’m doing it!

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So, that’s it for 2012! My resolutions are pretty simple (I think), but they are important things I want to see happen in the next year. They’re also things that are going to take me outside my comfort zone!

Question
Do you have any resolutions that you find “scary” or that will push you out of your comfort zone?

A Year in Review – 2011

Hey all! Hope everyone had a wonderful holidays and New Years! I’ve been M.I.A. from the blog world for the past two weeks, as you may have noticed. I have been keeping up with everyone’s blogs, but obviously not commenting as much. I’ve had lots of new and exciting things come into my life this month. Things have been busy, but I’m so ready for the changes that are brewin’!

Generally I’m not a huge fan of the “Year in Review” blog posts, because I’ve probably been following your blog for the past year, and already know what you’ve been up to! (Hey, just sayin’…) But after reading through a couple review posts, I realized how awesome it will be a year from now to compare my 2011 to my 2012. So for purely selfish reasons (and because I haven’t been blogging since the beginning of the year, so you probably don’t know what I’ve been up to) here is my 2011 in review.

It hasn’t been the greatest year for me. I went through a loss, a layoff, and a lot of job unhappiness. But there were some positives and definitely a lot of lessons learned!

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January
– After a terrible snowboarding accident, and what seemed like a successful recovery, my family loses my uncle to a pulmonary embolism. It is the first time I truly see my dad devastated. I spent a lot of the past year (2010) wondering what was the reason I had ended up back home when I hadn’t planned on moving to my hometown after graduating nursing school. I realize that maybe I was meant to be close to home when this happened so I could be around to support my family.
– To deal with my own grieving and the increasing stress at my job, I start practicing hot yoga every single day.

February
– Lots and lots of work stress. There is talk going around the office about an impending layoff. We are all waiting with bated breath.
– I am one month into my everyday yoga practice. I swear this was the only thing keeping me sane at the time…

March
– The rumors are true. We receive one month’s layoff notice at work, with potential for a layoff extension. Wonderful.
– I complete a 60-day hot yoga challenge. I am exhausted, but in great shape!
– I make a quick trip back to Kamloops to visit some friends.
– I run my first trail race, and end up falling into a cactus. I finish the run with spines sticking out of me! Then, a day later, I experience an allergic reaction where the spines punctured me (mostly on my arm).
– On the last day of the month (and the day our layoff notice gets extended by three months), I decide to walk away from my position. I am devastated, but know I can’t continue working in a toxic workplace.

April
– I don’t work for most of the month, but I quickly get hired at a new workplace in a similar position to my last job.
– I run the Vancouver Sun Run 10K. Unfortunately, my Kamloops ex beats me by a couple minutes. Friendly competition.
– I turn 24, and celebrate at Chippendales. Yup, classy 24th…
– I travel to Vancouver Island with two of my university professors to do a presentation to nursing faculty from all over BC and up north. Exciting stuff!
– I buy my first brand new vehicle!
– I make the decision to not proceed with starting graduate school (Masters) this year, and instead pursue my dreams of Medicine/Dentistry.

May
– I start my new job.

June
– I move into a brand spankin’ new apartment.
– My friend and I spontaneously go to a Rihanna concert, and have the best time rockin’ out to RiRi!

July
– I fulfill one of my life’s dreams of seeing Britney Spears (and Nicki Minaj) live in concert… Don’t judge. I was emotional and ecstatic. It was an awesome night!


– I reunite with some friends from nursing school at my old roommate’s wedding in the city.
– I go on a whole slew of very interesting dates. They all made for some very interesting stories, and made me realize I’m in no rush for a relationship at this point in my life. 
– My brother moves in with me.

August
– I head out to good old Nelson, B.C. to see my little cousin get married! The best part of the trip is getting to road trip with my mom and realizing that we are finally starting to develop a friendship.

September
– I start my Chemistry course.
– I go to the hot mess of a Ke$ha and LMFAO concert. That’ll be my first and last time attending one of their shows… Sorry that I’m not sorry!
– I get “officially” accepted into university, to start full-time studies again in the Winter 2012 semester. Here we go again!
– I get hit with tonsillitis, but recover very quickly (as I always do).

October
– My brother gets a position up north and moves out. I’m on my own again!
– I attend an out-of-town work conference and come to a few disturbing realities about my job while there. I leave pretty devastated, but knowing I have very legitimate reasons to make a change so I can be happier and healthier in my working life.
– Run a 5K race with my best friend!
– I make the decision to give my notice at my apartment for the end of November to move in with a couple friends. I make this decision so I can (a) save money and afford school, and (b) so I can work towards a job change.

November
– I run my first half-marathon… While injured. However, I’m not acknowledging my injury at the time because I’m so determined to run this race. Not really smart, but I finish!
– I run another 10K and set a PR… Ya! While injured.

December
– I move into my new place, and am adjusting (to a lot less space).
– I am now dealing with a severely injured foot and ankle. I start intensive physiotherapy.
– I celebrate my one year vegi-versary! I’ve actually been a vegetarian for longer, I just never stuck with it as seriously as I did this time. I’m so happy being veggie and plan to never turn back!
– I get hired for not one, but two new positions – one RN position, and a care director position. Whoohoo! Things are a-changing!
– I spend Christmas with my family, minus my brother who is stuck working up north. We celebrate Christmas over webcam.
– I get hit with gastroenteritis thanks to new job.

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Reflecting on the past two years, I realize that I have gone through a lot of hurt and loss. In 2010, I had some of the most significant relationships of my life breakdown. I also went through the loss of finishing nursing school, moving out of a city I’d lived in for the past 4 years, and leaving friendships behind. In 2011, I went through losses with my family and my job. I processed through many feelings of anger, betrayal, broken heartedness, sadness, and depression. But through it all, I’ve come to realize that as humans, we all go through pain. Going through my own painful times has made me more compassionate towards others. I want the theme of this year ahead to be “peace and kindness.” Inner peace with who I am and what I’ve gone through, and moving forward without any ties to the hurt and pain of the past couple years. And in regards to kindness, I just want to treat others kindly. Not that I don’t, because I like to think I’m generally a good hearted person, but in stressful moments or moments where I’ve been hurting, I’ve sometimes been too self absorbed to be there for others. One of the greatest gifts you can give someone is to act kindly towards them. People remember kindness. 

Also, keeping on the theme of kindness, I have decided to stop eating fish. Fish is the only animal flesh I have continued to consume, and I’ve decided (for many David Suzuki reasons) that I want to omit it from my diet now. It’s a personal choice for me, and I have nothing to say to any fishy eaters out there other than *pretty please* do your research around sustainable seafood! Let’s make sure we keep our friends in the ocean around for a long time.

One of my own fish friends.

I’m ready for 2012. I feel like this year and the next couple years have the potential to be some of the best years of my life. I’m moving forward without fear in the direction of my dreams. Life is good.