My life has been very busy lately. Juggling work, homework, and my upcoming move has left me with very little time for play. If you hadn’t noticed my lack of posts, or my lack of commenting on your blog posts, it’s not because I fell off the face of the internet. It’s because I just haven’t had the time.
I really cherish the time I have to do things I enjoy.
Going to yoga classes.
Going for long runs.
Making time to see friends.
Making time to blog.
(Are you ready for some whine?) Lately I’ve been frustrated by all the extra time I’ve been spending at work, with no compensation. I’m tired of my commute, which rounds out to just over an hour and a half a day. (Everyone out there who has to commute over an hour to work each day, my condolences. It’s not fun!) I’ve especially been frustrated that I’ve had to put things like running, blogging, and going to yoga, all which I love to do, on the backburner. Really, the only thing I’ve been making time for outside of work is seeing my family. That’s it.
So internally I’ve gone into “fight girl” mode. I’ve been angry, upset, and frustrated that my life has been all work and no play lately. I’ve been trying to fight things that are inevitable, and which I don’t have control over. The only thing I really have control over is how I approach these things, and I’ve been choosing to waste energy having a negative attitude about it.
This is my life right now. Maybe there are a few things I can do to alter the situation a bit, like not staying late at work and organizing myself better at home. This is really difficult since my home is in chaos with me moving in the next couple weeks.
The reality is, this isn’t the rest of my life. This is just my now. Instead of fighting it with negativity, I should really just choose to accept that it is what it is. Instead of fighting what feels like a raging river, I could instead choose to go with the flow. That takes a whole lot less energy, now doesn’t it?
(I know, I just brought physics into my blog post… Geek!)
And what about the little things… Like the crack in my car’s windshield that nearly brought me to the point of a nervous breakdown last week?
Those things happen. And those things are definitely bound to happen when I’m stressing out on my way to work, driving much too fast. I have no control over what flies into my windshield and breaks the glass. I only have control over how I react to it. Sure, there are things I can do to lessen the risk (i.e. slowing down, avoiding driving on gravel roads). But ultimately, my attitude toward what is thrown in my direction is the only thing I have any control over.
I remember in my 9th grade Leadership class, we would read passages from the book, “Don’t Sweat the Small Stuff.” In my middle school bubble, the idea of not sweating the small stuff really didn’t *click* with me. Life was pretty easy back in the day. What things did I really have to “sweat” about back then? Fast forward 10 years later, and like a brick to the head, the words make sense.
Don’t sweat the small stuff.
This too shall pass.
Life is good. Change is going to come, in it’s right time and place. Things may not be perfect right this moment, but really, when will they ever be? This is life. I can’t fight the current right now. I need to let go, and just go with it.
In the end, everything will be OK. If it’s not, it’s not the end… Right?